how to pray, learn, and do anything that i want :)

the most difficult thing to do is to show how really care you are to the special one. to my family. to you.
it's the hard part i though.
showing to another people that you really care about him/her.
showing that you really what him/her to be around you.

it's hard for me to say "hello, i miss you" or "i love you"
even to my family.

i don't know why, but it's too hard for me to show my feeling about something
i prefer do adaptation, than tell another what they should do or what i think about something

well, it's not a good habit. i try to change, but until now, i can't do it
at night, when i try to fall asleep, i said to my self to show about what i think to another people, but still i can't tell to him/her
some night, i plan a conversation that maybe happen when we have a chit chat. but reality, i can't do it.

oh.. how stupid i am.